So I've mentioned to ya'll before how much I have the baby fever! I think we've finally come to an agreement to start trying/not preventing next month....giving us a November due date if it happens right away. So not long at all till we begin to try! But for some reason I am still having such a hard time being truly happy for my other pregnant friends.
I'll admit it! I know I am! I know its wrong! But I am! I want to be truly happy for them, but I also REALLY want to be pregnant right along with them! I'm also having the issue with gender. Meaning, a lot of my friend are finding out they are having the opposite of their first child (ex: boy first, girl next). I would LOVE to have a girl next. I want to have a girl next. But for some reason I just don't think that's going to happen. No idea why. But I fear so much that I'm going to get pregnant, find out its a boy, and be dissapointed. And I don't want that! I want to be happy regardless! And I may be, but I don't know!
Ugh with Noah we weren't trying but we weren't preventing either. It happened and we just moved forward from there. With planning a baby there are so many what if's and questions that have to be asked and figured out! It's stressful?!
When you were planning for a baby or if you are, was it this stressful for you? What fears, if any, did you have? Do/Did you have the fears and thoughts I am having? Or am I just crazy?! Haha!!